You had me at hello

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Very sick and tired, literally

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Very tired, and need a nice long walk to make me feel at peace. Am currently craving for seafood Aglio Olio. Would have cooked it myself, just that the fridge has ran out of ingredients like prawns and clams. damn, Its in the morning and i'm already feel sulky. yesterday wasnt so bad, but today, i woke up on the wrong side of my tatami.

I hope no one sees this, its officially dead, but i've used it as my ranting space. No more the "go tag my blog" craze of yesteryears, and its more of my life, i live it, and yours, so be it. I watched Ming Zhong yesterday, and dylan said something i particularly like, that if you know what is your best, you wouldn't hesitate to give in, or settle for something you know thats not. Along that line, can't really remember it word for word, but the gist's there.

Yeah, i guess it's the case, but not everyone can be that true to themselves. So many, out there, living in self delusion, maybe because of the fact that they've suffered under low self esteem, and anything looking brighter than usual, not brightest, they settle for it so easily. I hope they find their worth and not continue living in such a lie. What would life be then, if what you wanted and hoped for, halved and easily settled for? I would die with tons of regrets.

Maybe why i'm particularly impulsive is so that i would not let feelings or nerve impulses escape unaccomplished. I think i would be very sad if i had to look back and wished i had done this at that time. Many instances cannot be reverted back, and the same setting cannot be staged once again for you to do your re-run. Its probably crazy, in generic terms, but honestly dont many of us have regrets? I dont like the sinking feeling of it, and the way it eats you up slowly inside. For a while, i couldn't find myself, there was this struggle that i wanted to act in a way not conformed to the general population. But deciding to do things by feelings could also be my very downfall.

Consequences that cannot be salvaged, and friendships ruined. I guess i have had plently of those. But honestly those really true ones have never left, and i thank god for them. those that bother to go crazy along with me are really happening yo! but yes i think through many such shit i have gotten myself into, i have finally seen who are most important to me.

I have made up my mind, and i know i wont settle for my second best, and hope you wont either. i honestly dont know what is best, best. but this definitely is not the best outcome. Maybe logic does not adhere to the current situation, illogicality-imperitive. Felt so much these few weeks, and its just me, me. Its okay. My new plan is concrete and am pretty sure of whats in line.

But for now, its the horrible A levels trying to suck the blood and life out of all of us. Dont let them get their way. Survive this and you'd all come for my barbeque chicken wing party and we will eat and dance the night away

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Hey, life is as boring as usual. With a few exceptions here and there. Hmmmm. If not for them, i'd have gone insane beyond insane. Heh, have been really scary recently. Going crazy and talking rubbish and screaming at random people- Not funny. The day after is worse, with having to apologise to them and hide my face. Argh,. Today was random funny day. If only everyday was funny and laughable. I thought about year one and how i miss it, but its okay i'm better now. hahah

Thursday, July 02, 2009

Oh goodness me, she's obviously doesn't knowww.

Hahahaha.

THE JCTS ARE ENDING IN JUST ONE PAPER, MATH CAN SERIOUSLY GO AND CRUMPLE AND DIE IN ONE CORNER I REALLY DONT CAREEEE. EVERYTHING ELSE WAS A GONER. AM HAPPY TO SURVIVE IT AND THANK GOD FOR CRAPABILITY FOR GEOG AND GP HAHAHAHAH. YEAHHHHHHHHH HAPPY HAPPY, EH EH LADY GAGA IS MAKING ME GOOO GAGA HAHAHAHAHA EASTY IS GOING MAD AND CRAZYYY OHMYGOOOOSHHHHHHHH

Sunday, June 28, 2009

I know that no one reads this space anymore, but i still like to come back and talk nonsense
Feel accomplished :}

Can pack my bags and leave for a holiday anytime ahhhhhhhh

Monday, June 22, 2009

Looking at the green uniform is enough to remind bout how much i dislike school. Stepping into its premises is worse, with all the walls trying to suffocate you and the sports complex looking so dumb like its not dumb enough, Alright, pissy mood, bad bad. Bad handwritings, bad logic, all nonsense. Am still bothered, but heck, i'm quite happy with jun pyo as it is now, no need for anything to disrupt anything.

Say hello to the person that successfully cheers me up.

On a bad note, studying is torturous and i have a tendency to retreat to weird corners wherever i am. I like to be protected by walls haha. BUT GJP IS ALWAYS THERE TO MAKE ME SMILEEE :}

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Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Let me see, the days passed so quickly i havent even registered it to be June yet. School's out for now, have been dreading the holidays. Means more studying and much less nonsense now that we dont have stupid lama lectures and tutorials and random finals to go to? hahaha. We are the ultimate fan of finals being the most kaypoh and aunty to tar pao chap chai peng.

Nasty bandungs that taste of Fe, blood, ARGH. disgusting!

Left, one big thing to get started on. Want to guess? hahaha. its kinda predictable anyway. To get myself a future and stop dreaming to become the First lady without having anything solid myself. Haha. Yes i know, its really irritating to have to be aware of a random eighteen year old's crazy fantasies. sorry.

So, we are now going to be nice studious little girls and boys and do our practice papers, read newspapers and watch boys over flowers. :}